aYaZ-the unbrakable!!!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

last wednesday, me and billy went to ps.Atom. aku siy niatnya cuman mo nemenin di aja. dan dia siy rencananya cuman pgn cari dvd kingkong aja, dan itu bukan krn dia blm nntn. dia blg "i bought it for my collection..". dan ternyata, sesampainya kita di ps.Atom, tak ada konter2 yg menjual dvd yg diinginkannya. i mean, emang siy ada dvd kingkong. tp bukan copy`an yg dia cr. untungnya qta ktm sm ibu2 chinese. tacik itu jg salah satu penjual dvd bajakan di ps.Atom. mungkin krn dia membaca muka kecewa kita, dia mengajukan "kata kunci"nya "nyari kaset yg biasae ta, ce??". and when we said yes, kita diajak ke suatu tmpt yg jauh dr keramaian pasar. dan disanalah transaksi jual beli itu terjadi. dvd2 itu gak di display di konter, tp di kotak2 tupperware yg bs setiap saat di bawa lari oleh sang penjual ke satpol pp datang untuk mengamankan brg2 bajakan itu.. dan disanalah kami,,
according to billy, there are several tricks to buy a good pirated dvd..
1. di cover yg bagian atas gak berwarna kuning. it can be blue or grey.. pokoknya jgn yg kuning. iya, the stripes on top of the cover!!
2. di covernya ada emblem angka 9 dgn background warna biru. biasanya bentuknya oval ato bulat. ato bs jg yf ada 4 bintangnya..
3. u should test it, first. iya, jgn pernah membeli dvd bajakan tanpa mencobanya dulu. bisa aja kan dvd yg dibeli itu teks englishnya kacangan, ato gambarnya gak bagus ato apalah gitu,, pokoknya u should test it first!!!
4. make a good relationship with some of the seller. iya, qta musti memperbanyak koneksi. biasanya kalo qta pny hubungan yg baik dgn mereka, mrk jg akan merekomendasikan film2 bagus dan copy`an yg bagus. ato kalo qta dah beli, dan dvd yg qta beli ngadat, qta bs balikin dvd itu.. iya gak siy??;p
just try it for urself!!

well, anyway,,
kemaren akhirnya aku jg beli bbrp dvd. aku siy lebih suka beli dvd yg 3 in 1. harganya sama tp bs dpt bnyk film. tp yah.. gt deh. qta gak bs dpt kualitas sebagus yg satuan, tp they worthy u know,,
dan salah satu film yg ada di dvd 3 in 1 adalah film Must Love Dogs. emang siy filmnya gak seberapa romantis spt yg di rekomendasikan billy. tp karakter yg ada di film itu kyknya memiliki persamaan dgnku. karakter Sarah Nolan yg diperankan Diane Lane itu adalah seorang janda*bkn!! bkn ini persamaan kami!!* yg ditinggal suaminya gara2 perempuan yg lebih muda. dan sejak saat itu dia ngerasa trauma untuk menjalin hubungan ma pria lg. padahal, sodara2nya dah berusaha u/ nyomblangi dia dgn bbrp pria. tp gak jg berhasil,, and thats how we are connected each other..
i`m having traumatic relationship, too. of my own and my parents`. yup, my parents divorced. my mom died, and my father have a new wife. and i live with them r8 now. dan mungkin itulah yg membuatku susah untuk mempercayai suatu hubungan. aku dah mencoba u/ menjalani beberapa hubungan. dan semuanya gagal. my mom failed, too.
saat ini, banyak sodara2 dan teman2ku yg mencoba mengenalkanku dgn bbrp pria. there are several numbers on my phonebooks*ada yg berminat? anyone?*. aku dah coba u/ smsan dgn bbrp dr mereka. yah, cuman smsan. ngobrol2 basabasi gt. gak lebih,,
biasanya, setiap mrk menanyakan no telp rmh ato alamat rmh, aku lgsg berubah jd perempuan jahat, ketus, dll. i just freaked out, u know.. entahlah,,
kata Tika Bisono di suatu acara infotainment, "biasanya anak2 dr korban perceraian takut kalo perceraian yg dialami orangtuanya juga dialami oleh dirinya sendiri. dan ketakutan itu berubah menjadi trauma yg membuat mereka membentengi diri mereka dgn rasa ketidakpercayaan terhadap suatu hubungan dan lawan jenis"
apa benar, yg membuatku merasa takut u/ jatuh cinta dan menjalin suatu hubungan lagi itu karena aku trauma akan apa yg terjadi dgn orangtuaku? apa benar, aku takut kalo apa yg dulu terjadi pada mamaku akan terjadi jg padaku??
long time ago,, when i was 11, i saw my mum crying all the time. she cried a lot. every single night.. and at that time, its just like i can feel her pain and her tears..
is that what i`ve been afraid of??

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
Ive learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I dont get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know thats weakness in your eyes
Im forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart cant possibly break
When it wasnt even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I dont get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because Of You-Kelly Clarkson